Everything starts with a dream. A thot. An idea.
From there, I write a word or two. Maybe after a day, I’ll go back and add a few more words, maybe I’ll write a page or more of an outline.
With time, the storyline begins to show itself, allowing me to add more to it, improve on it. Before I know it, I’ve written chapter 1.
But before chapter 1, I need a great idea and that comes from my subconscious, which is what my editor, William Garner, calls “the engine that drives everything we do.” He came up with this model for the human subconscious: the Inner CHILD. No, it’s not a spin-off of Jung’s or Freud’s crap, which are based on bad information.
Garner’s idea is that the human subconscious is made up of five separate and distinct components, CHILD.
C is for Child, the little kid in you, the one who looks at the world with wide-eyed wonder and fascination.
H is the Heart, the purely subjective part of your subconscious, your collective emotions and feelings.
I is the Information-gathering system that pulls in all the stimuli from the world into your little head. It can be called the “intuition,” too, but that is misleading, b’cuz intuition also uses other components of your subconscious, not just the information-gathering system.
L is the logic, that rigid and purely objective part that sees things as black or white. There are no gray areas with the Logic. It’s a robot.
D is that little Demon in you, the impish character who loves mischief and sometimes mayhem. Watch out, ‘cos this one can really do some damage, if left to its own devices.
So here we have the CHILD. I use mine to look deep into my subconscious, to discover hidden gems that rock my universe. Sometimes my CHILD sends me messages that blow me away, and I never asked for them.
Or did I?
Other times, I consciously ask for help from my CHILD, and she responds back, but not in the way you might think! Each CHILD in us talks with us through dreams. They are usually the stereotypical dreams we have at night, but you can also receive information in daydreams and little catnap dreams. It takes a lot of effort to learn how to communicate with your CHILD, which is why hardly anyone accepts Garner’s explanation about it, let alone studies and employs it.
In developing WTF, Dorkus!, I talked with my CHILD every night for a long-ass time until she helped me write the original outline, which I called “Suicide: The Ultimate 12-Step Program.” It came to me in bits and pieces over many months, and it was frustrating at times, but I persevered.
In the end, I had what I thot was a unique story to tell.
I’ll admit, the final version is really nothing like the first draft I wrote! Originally, I wrote a story that was 100% dialog: Dorkus’s dialog in one font, and my dialog in a different font. And I emailed it to some editor friends. They loved it. But they also said no one would ever publish it because it just didn’t fit any known mold.
Fuck. I hate molds. Except the ones I create myself.
So I went back and rewrote it, adding descriptive narrative and supporting stuff, while taking great care not to include fluff. I hate fluff. It’s just filler for when an author doesn’t have enough good words to share. I hate fluff. WTF, Dorkus! ain’t got no fluff!
Fast-forward to today: while I miss the first draft I wrote, I am happy with the new-and-improved WTF, Dorkus! It has purpose that a reader can latch onto, follow through each session between Dorkus and me, and continue on to the end.
Wish I could tell you how it ends! Guess you’ll just have to buy the book. Or steal it.
I love you all!